I had some grand post planned. I really did. Something meaningful and wise and wonderful. In truth. I have nothing. I cannot think of one damn thing to say that will sound profound. So I will focus on something of an average nature. Something that maybe will make me smile. Things I have come to realize in my lifetime. Yeah, that’ll do.
You see, today folks, I celebrate my 30th Birthday.
I had some idea of what I wanted to say to my 20 year old self, but then thought about it and came to the conclusion to focus not on the past as such and more on what I have learned in my 30 years of existence.
Either way, here it goes:
I have learned that you can have all the patience in the world. Up until you have children of course. Because somehow, it just seems to dangle by a thread or disappear completely.
I have learned that no matter how sick you are, you will always carry on to see to the needs of your family.
I have learned that no matter what crap day you have had, coming home to smiling faces and kisses can mean the world.
I have learned that no matter how hard you struggle, you will find a way to come out on top in the end.
I have learned that you can be pushed to your limits and be close to a psychotic break and yet still remain sane enough to change a nappy.
I have learned that having that moment with your partner where you laugh together for a good solid five minutes is like heaven.
I have learned that I have aged exponentially faster than what I would have liked. My hair is about at grey as the average 50 year old. My knees and joints are permanently not happy with me. My back hates me. And the dark circles under my eyes make me look like an extra from any one of those zombie movies.
I have come to appreciate sleep.
I am thankful that I have the ability to put the brakes on just before I am about to snap and become some psycho mom.
I have come to learn that I am not alone in this battle (and sometimes blissful) period that is motherhood. I am glad that I am not the only one who thinks the same way I do. And I appreciate all the women who stand up and admit that motherhood is not all it’s cracked up to be.
I have come to learn that no matter what the age, kids will always attempt to outsmart you. The key is to get smarter. 😉
I have learned to appreciate the little things.
I have come to understand that I will never be perfect, but that that fact shouldn’t stop me from aiming high.
I wanted to do 30 of these, but I got tired/distracted again. But I think I have managed to learn quite a bit. 😉